Paalam na kahapon kailangan na ako ng ngayon

Alaala mo’y ikakahon ngunit kailan ma’y hindi kayang itapon…

I am not sad

She awoke each morning with the desire to do right, to be a good and meaningful person, to be, as simple as it sounded and as impossible as it actually was, happy. And during the course of each day her heart would descend from her chest into her stomach. By early afternoon she was overcome by the feeling that nothing was right, or nothing was right for her, and by the desire to be alone. By evening she was fulfilled: alone in the magnitude of her grief, alone in her aimless guilt, alone even in her loneliness. I am not sad, she would repeat to herself over and over, I am not sad. As if she might one day convince herself. Or fool herself. Or convince others —- the only thing worse than being sad is for others to know that you are sad. I am not sad. I am not sad. Because her life had unlimited potential for happiness, insofar as it was an empty white room. She would fall asleep with her heart at the foot of her bed, like some domesticated animal that was no part of heart all. And each morning she would wake with it again in the cupbopard of her rib cage, having become a little heavier, a little weaker, but still pumping. And by midafternoon she was again overcome with the desire to be somewhere else, someone else, someone else, somewhere else. I am not sad.

You don’t forget the face of the person who was your last hope.

~Suzanne Collins, The Hunger Games

The day I left home I knew I’d broken His heart and I wondered then if things could ever the same…

Dear Lord, if ever po ba babalik ako doon… will it please you? Will you accept my heartfelt offering for my far greater love? Ganoon po pala ‘yun, ano? Lahat ng kaya mong gawin, ibibigay mo para sa taong mahal mo, mapabuti lang siya. Thank you Lord for giving your all for me… Sana magawa ko rin ang ginawa mo para sa akin… ang hirap po maging si Hosea pero mahal ko pa rin po siya… gaano man kahirap, kasakit… Pa-hug nga po ako…. :’)

Same Side Of The Moon

I’m looking out the window
Where we sat to watch the stars
There’s a chill within the air
It makes my heart long for your touch
You may be miles away
But as I kneel to pray

I see the same side of the moon
That we’ll be looking on when the world turns blue
And know that time and space
Can’t come between me and you
We share the same side of the moon
And though you’ll never see all my tears shine through
I know I can’t be that far from you
If we’re both looking on the same side of the moon.

I picture you across the oceans
In your corner of the world
I pray the wind will blow my voice
And gently whisper in your ear
Your night may be my day
And though the seasons change

It’s still the same side of the moon
That we’ll be looking on when the world turns blue
And know that time and space
Can’t come between me and you
We share the same side of the moon
And though you’ll never see all my tears shine through
I know I can’t be that far from you
If we’re both looking on the same side of the moon
I know I can’t be that far from you
If we’re both looking on the same side of the moon

“Kapag KAYO MISMO – ugali nyo, prinsipyo niyo, takbo ng isip & dmdamin nyo, mga plano niyo,

at ang MGA NASA PALIGID NYO – mga sitwasyon, pagkakataon, mga tao, mga pangyayari 

-ay tila di sumasang-ayon sa inyo at nagkakatugma-tugma para sa inyo, malinaw: hindi PA kayo ang kalooban para sa isa’-t isa, hindi PA ito ang panahon para sa inyo, o wala PA kayo sa pinaka-akmang paraan. O kaya naman, masakit man, HINDI TALAGA KAYO ANG KALOOBAN (NG DIYOS)…”